I fell into clinical depression in '80, 'cause I saw that Reagan's "election" meant we had lost the fight to save the environment. I feel most depressives, like me, just have too tight a grip on reality, unable to use the salve of denial effectively. I tried again last year to get off Lexipro. 4 months later I was seeing the world as helllishly bleak. I had to re-start the medication. If i had a way to pump-up the power of denial, i may not need the drugs. I have resolved to try to live another 20 years; but I see it will have a price.