First, please understand that I'm not complaining nor begrudging my life. My life is as it is, and I refuse to give up and quit working towards a nation based upon human values.
Back last January my wife decided to abandoned the family and ran off with some other guy. This left me to care for my 18-year-old son (my first wife died in 1999) and 7-year-old daughter. I managed to hang it together until about July when a series of circumstances caused my fragile economic situation to bottom out.
This has actually been an amazing experience - excruciating, but amazing. Along the way I've been able to see poverty at the deepest levels; I've experienced welfare and that routine. Most importantly, I've been able to see more clearly observe the darkness and isolation of the human mind.
As Dr. Daisaku Ikeda said "Achieving an ideal society must ultimately begin with each individual undergoing a great human revolution, or inner transformation." I have used this incredibly brutal opportunity to do just that.
Along the way I lost a good job because my boss figured his profits were more important than my taking care of my daughter (she's doing great, and remains a top student in school - she's been my primary focus through all of this). I eventually got the unemployment benefits going, only to watch the bank eat it up while leaving nothing for me.
Actually, the fact that the bank clears $500 checks with no money in the account is a good thing. It's allowed me to save all of my possessions in the storage lockers. I'm amazed that, despite a $800 balance to my cell phone company, they haven't shut me off yet. That should happen any day now.
I managed to land myself and my daughter in a good place with some fellow Democrats. For the first time ever, my son is under a different roof, but he too is safe. It's been emotionally tough, but, I've now fought back through my own mind.
In my present situation, progressive radio is going in every room of the house throughout the day, as is MSNBC. I'm in a good place. This is allowing me to "get back to work" in terms of retuning myself to politics and society.
Life is what you make it to be. Somehow, I've managed to keep my children protected through all of this. Now I'm in a position to overcome my own isolation of the past few months and get back to work. Destitute, yes. Giving up, Never.
As I retune to the political and economic world around me, I hope to contribute more to the process of moving this nation forward to the benefit of ALL people.